~aksis~

cigarette_girl

Let me introduce you to the latest crush.  Meet Chuck:

cute. I meant someone alot younger.

That's CHUCKY.  I did not say not human! 

  She's gorgeous I know, and while I love her too, I meant someone of the opposite gender.

HIM!

Chuck Bartowski is a twenty something computer guy working as part of the Nerd Herd in Buy More.  A Stanford kick-out who had the (mis)fortune of receiving a program that saved top secret government information in his brain.  So of course, being the holder of important information, he needed protection.  He was assigned with an agent from CIA, Sarah, and an agent from NSA, Casey.  For those who know Firefly, Casey used to play Jayne.  His cahracter here is pretty much the same: the muscle; only much, much better than Jayne will be.

Why I like him?  Cos he's nerdy and shy and sweet and funny and seems perpetually lost but very bright.  The episodes are a lot of fun.  Light, fast-paced, and interesting.

Well, if you're still not too sold with Chuck, maybe she'll spice up your interest:

now think Annie (from Shaider) whenever she flips over the counter to battle the bad guys in that uniform!

(on things that might make your eyes cross)

GHV2

Kaninang umaga, with some twist of fate, I twisted my ankle on my way to work.

Natakot ako kasi ang lakas ng tunog na na-produce, parang andaming nabaling buto.

Pinakiramdaman ko ang sarili ko, medyo makirot lang ng konti pag naglalakad at pag pababa ng hagdan.

Ung payong ko, nagsilbing tungkod ko tuloy.

Nagkita kami ni Kuyatot nung pauwi na ako. Sadly, dahil sa kirot, natarayan ko pa siya ng sobra-sobra. Waaahhh!!

Pagkauwi ko at pagkaalis ko ng sapatos at medyas, saka ko nakita me konting umbok sa ilalim ng bukong-bukong. Halata ang pamamaga. Nilagyan ko agad ng Omega Pain Killer.

Hay, pag namaga lalo ito ng bonggang-bongga bukas, takbo ako agad sa orthopedic center.

Haha, hindi pala ako puwede tumakbo.

Hay.

Hay.

Hay.

hulogakonglangit

ay buhay.. bakit laging ganon? kung kailan papalapit ng papalapit, tsaka naman lumalayo ang lahat.. ewan ko ba kung bakit pero parang nasa tabi na kita pero ang hirap mo pa rin abutin..,

... ang hirap naman oh..

hanggang kailan ba kita kailangan abutin?

hanggang saan ba ang dapat kong abutin?

well, kakapit pa ako hangga't kaya ko pa..

may worth naman siguro yung effort ko diba?

reielle

. . . . Resulta ng kaadikan... Wehehehe...

Next week wla n kong trabaho... Pero okay lang... dahil balak ko mgpahinga muna... npapagod n tlg ko eh... cguro may sakit ako... feeling ko kgbi mamamatay n ko sa sobrang pnghina ko... Akala p nila ngjJowk ako... Sino b nmn kz mniniwala na wala nmn tlgng mabigat n rison kung bakit ako ngresyn... E Absent daw ako ng 2days baka daw may lilipatan n ko... Mga adik! ayaw mniwalal n hndi ako ngAppply... hehehe... sabi p ng iba ikakasal n daw ako... WAHAHAHAHA... Naman!! eh mgulo nga lablayp ko eh... tas lalagay p ko sa tahimik?? nyahahahahaha...

may pairrevocable-irrevocable p daw kz akong nlalaman... effective ngaun dpat... Nyek.. e bakit ba... ung supervisor nga pumayag eh.. khit wlang kwenta ung reason ko na... "Gusto ko lang po mgResign." hehehe.. sa kasamaang palad hnggang bukas p ko.. hehehe

pero nkakalungkot din pla... wala lang.. nung cnbi saken na hnggng bukas n lng ako... nakakalungkot din pla... akala ko hndi ko cla mmiMiz.. haaaay... hndi n nga ko pinapansin ng katabi ko at ng Lead nmin... huhu... maiiwan ko n cla...

NakakaLungkot... huhu T_T

Once earthly joy I craved, sought peace and rest;

Now Thee alone I seek, give what is best

aisheru

HaPPy?

how can we be..

if we cant celebrate it together today.. =(

you showed up for a very short time just to greet me.

i wasnt satisfied, but its alright (i guess it couldve been enough)

for how many times ive said, we cant do anything about it this time..

i have to understand..

i went teary and shy to look at your face,

for i dont want you to see how sad ive been.

you have no time for me,

i hate to see..

but  when you kissed me,

i realize it isnt just me who feels that way.

i look at you,

you showed a sad face..

said i love you..

and kiss me good bye!

 HAPPY MONTHSARY HONEY.. its been a while..

duh! i hate the feeling! syet!

habang tinitingnan ko yung photo album ng kapatid ko sa friendster, may nakita akong picture niya:

the caption says: UP NADILIMAN.


haha! walanghiya 'tong kapatid ko, may maisipan lang. kainis!
ako naman si mababaw, tawa ako ng tawa sa pic na to,
har, aminadong maitim talaga siya.

sa UP diliman daw kasi niya gustong mag-aral, ang kukuhain daw niya
ay conservatory of music.
wow, natuwa naman ako ^^


shet, dapat ko ng bawasan ang paginom ng kape,
masyado na akong nagiging mababaw, nyek! paki-konek??

I find it hard to write about bliss, or how it is being happy.All I can do is writhe to the melancholic music I always seared in my head.I tried listening to the rhythm of my heart, tried hearing what it has to say. I stopped for a moment to recognize its message, after what seemed like eternity, I found no answer. Is it better to be like this? Or I think I need to go out and try finding answers in a different way. I never had the chance to ride a roller coaster(literally), but I have tried riding a different roller coaster where I felt the suffocation, heaviness that was causing me to stop crying.I had to stop, for there was nothing left to cry. I should try to ride the real roller coaster one day to experience a different kind of suffocation, when the machine drops giving no warning, where the heart curls into a little knot,the stomach feels empty and there is air everywhere.

I don't know how to be happy. Seriously. When you smile, it doesn't mean you're happy. Although everybody can see me smiling and guffawing. I still don't understand why I am so unhappy inside. Why am I staying away from the world? I do not know. I don't see my purpose. Now I had received a comment from an old customer saying "Magic probably wears a cape under her work uniform." I smiled lopsidedly reading this very short but amazing comment. It made me smile from the heart.

Good morning tabulas.Remember to smile.

P.s: My friend told me that the cape elucidated my eagerness to help other people. To make other people happy. It showed how I became a "superwoman" to them without me doing anything but to brighten up their days. (which is in fact TRUE)